It has been a while since I have blogged, but this seemed like a pretty good time so I could explain why I am starting this facebook page.
No, I am not the Kohl's cash snapchat video lady. Yes, I've seen it, and it's hilarious. It's actually what gave me the idea to do a Cat Scan version. Yeah, I threw the notion around my head that my video could go viral. I tagged all my radiology friends and asked they like and share it. However, I don't think I actually believed it WOULD go viral!
I love to make people laugh! Always have. The reactions and comments and messages, for the most part, of my "Cat Scan Problems" video have been hilarious and encouraging. I have apparently spoke on behalf of thousands of fellow techs of the hilarious (and sometimes annoying) things we deal with on a daily basis.
Several years ago, God told me to write a book about my testimony, a memoir. Not long ago, I prayed for Him to help me develop my platform. I never expected it to be through a funny video. My memoir is filled with pain and drug abuse. However, it will be filled with humor, b/c I love to laugh. Laughter has brought me through pain many, many times.
I'm not creating my page just to sell a book. I am creating it to be myself, make more videos, write, encourage, and love on as many people as possible. Thank you for being a part of my journey.
Thursday, December 15, 2016
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
Happy New Year!
3 His divine power has given us everything we need for a godly life through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness. 4 Through these he has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature, having escaped the corruption in the world caused by evil desires.
-2 Peter 1:3-4
Reading this chapter, God highlighted this passage to me. At salvation, God has already given us all of Himself - all of His power and presence. However, according to this, we only receive it through knowledge - yet, not just knowing it. Knowing it in your head and knowing it in your heart are totally different. Knowing it in your heart actually births into faith and without faith, nothing is impossible (Matthew 17:20 [A]).
It is the same with salvation. We are saved through faith (Ephesians 2:8 [B]). Just believing (head knowledge) doesn't save you. Even the demons believe and tremble (James 2:19[C]).
Believing in your heart produces action - a desire to know Him and submit to Him - to serve and love Him b/c we believe He loved us first ( James 2:14 [D], 1 John 4:19 [E]). It's what changes everything.
It is easy to get frustrated when we don't understand what He is doing or when our prayers seem to go unanswered, but it is faith that pleases Him because it shows that we trust Him (Hebrews 11:6 [F]).
The key to this knowledge is the Word of God. It is God's voice and it tells us everything we need to know for what He expects, what we can do, and who we are. It also reveals His heart and love for us. It takes Holy Spirit to make it come alive (Hebrews 4:12 [G], 2 Timothy 3:16-17 [H]).
Doubt has no place when we trust this. He is faithful and His love NEVER fails! (2 Timothy 2:13 [I]).
Verses Used Throughout Passage:
A. Matthew 17:20 - "
B. Ephesians 2:8 - "For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God—"
C. James 2:19 - "You believe that there is one God. Good! Even the demons believe that—and shudder."
D. James 2:14 - "What good is it, my brothers and sisters, if someone claims to have faith but has no deeds? Can such faith save them?"
E. 1 John 4:19 - "We love because He first loved us."
F. Hebrews 11:6 - "And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him."
G. Hebrews 4:12 - "For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart."H. 2 Timothy 3:16-17 - " All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, 17 so that the servant of God[a] may be thoroughly equipped for every good work."
I. 2 Timothy 2:13 - "if we are faithless, He remains faithful, for He cannot disown himself."
-2 Peter 1:3-4
Reading this chapter, God highlighted this passage to me. At salvation, God has already given us all of Himself - all of His power and presence. However, according to this, we only receive it through knowledge - yet, not just knowing it. Knowing it in your head and knowing it in your heart are totally different. Knowing it in your heart actually births into faith and without faith, nothing is impossible (Matthew 17:20 [A]).
It is the same with salvation. We are saved through faith (Ephesians 2:8 [B]). Just believing (head knowledge) doesn't save you. Even the demons believe and tremble (James 2:19[C]).
Believing in your heart produces action - a desire to know Him and submit to Him - to serve and love Him b/c we believe He loved us first ( James 2:14 [D], 1 John 4:19 [E]). It's what changes everything.
It is easy to get frustrated when we don't understand what He is doing or when our prayers seem to go unanswered, but it is faith that pleases Him because it shows that we trust Him (Hebrews 11:6 [F]).
The key to this knowledge is the Word of God. It is God's voice and it tells us everything we need to know for what He expects, what we can do, and who we are. It also reveals His heart and love for us. It takes Holy Spirit to make it come alive (Hebrews 4:12 [G], 2 Timothy 3:16-17 [H]).
Doubt has no place when we trust this. He is faithful and His love NEVER fails! (2 Timothy 2:13 [I]).
Verses Used Throughout Passage:
A. Matthew 17:20 - "
B. Ephesians 2:8 - "For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God—"
C. James 2:19 - "You believe that there is one God. Good! Even the demons believe that—and shudder."
D. James 2:14 - "What good is it, my brothers and sisters, if someone claims to have faith but has no deeds? Can such faith save them?"
E. 1 John 4:19 - "We love because He first loved us."
F. Hebrews 11:6 - "And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him."
G. Hebrews 4:12 - "For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart."H. 2 Timothy 3:16-17 - " All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, 17 so that the servant of God[a] may be thoroughly equipped for every good work."
I. 2 Timothy 2:13 - "if we are faithless, He remains faithful, for He cannot disown himself."
Wednesday, December 19, 2012
Presence
The world is getting darker every day. There is such deception upon all, even many Christians. False prophets, fear, false religion, greed, and immorality are rampant, but........
"Arise, shine, for your light has come,
and the glory of the Lord rises upon you.
See, darkness covers the earth
and thick darkness is over the peoples,
but the Lord rises upon you
and His glory appears over you.
Nations will come to your light,
and kings to the brightness of your dawn."
Isaiah 60:1-3
This is about us, written thousands of years ago by a prophet of God. I believe in my heart of hearts he looked ahead to the times we are living in now, prophesied all through the Bible. I believe we are in the beginning of the end of the end times. I'm not going to go into my opinions on Bible prophecy too much, but I will say that I used to believe that the Church would get raptured before the 7 years of tribulation, yet my views have begun to shift. Either way, I believe that we are to usher Him in with our praise and prayer. He said He would come back for a perfect bride. Where are we now? We are largely divided and worried more about religion and appearances and our doctrine than being unified in what we do believe: Jesus Christ died and crucified and risen in glory to pay the precious cost with His blood for our redemption.
If we do not draw near to the Lord with everything we have, we will also be deceived during these times. We need His presence and His Word and our surrender to carry holiness, justice, righteousness, and LOVE! Stop wondering what your purpose is and look right in front of your face. Everyone around you is your mission field. Family first, friends, coworkers, strangers. Love the one in front of you. Did you know we will judged by the MERCY we extend to people, not judgment. We are not meant to carry that burden.
I just want to encourage you to take time EVERY DAY to still your mind and soul before Him. Enter His gates with thanksgiving and His courts with praise (Psalm 100:4). Connect your spirit with His Spirit. Remain in Him and He will remain in you (John 15:4). Draw near to Him, and He will draw near to you (James 3:8). Let Him love you so you can love Him back and love others. Your identity needs to come from Him so you can allow Him to love you the way He desires. If we don't remain in Him, our love will grow cold (Matthew 24:12).
Don't give up! Let's hold each other accountable. I know I need others. I fail more than I care to admit. But pick yourself back up and keep going. He promises to hold you and pick you up every time, but only if you want Him to. Please feel free to share. God Bless!
"Arise, shine, for your light has come,
and the glory of the Lord rises upon you.
See, darkness covers the earth
and thick darkness is over the peoples,
but the Lord rises upon you
and His glory appears over you.
Nations will come to your light,
and kings to the brightness of your dawn."
Isaiah 60:1-3
This is about us, written thousands of years ago by a prophet of God. I believe in my heart of hearts he looked ahead to the times we are living in now, prophesied all through the Bible. I believe we are in the beginning of the end of the end times. I'm not going to go into my opinions on Bible prophecy too much, but I will say that I used to believe that the Church would get raptured before the 7 years of tribulation, yet my views have begun to shift. Either way, I believe that we are to usher Him in with our praise and prayer. He said He would come back for a perfect bride. Where are we now? We are largely divided and worried more about religion and appearances and our doctrine than being unified in what we do believe: Jesus Christ died and crucified and risen in glory to pay the precious cost with His blood for our redemption.
If we do not draw near to the Lord with everything we have, we will also be deceived during these times. We need His presence and His Word and our surrender to carry holiness, justice, righteousness, and LOVE! Stop wondering what your purpose is and look right in front of your face. Everyone around you is your mission field. Family first, friends, coworkers, strangers. Love the one in front of you. Did you know we will judged by the MERCY we extend to people, not judgment. We are not meant to carry that burden.
I just want to encourage you to take time EVERY DAY to still your mind and soul before Him. Enter His gates with thanksgiving and His courts with praise (Psalm 100:4). Connect your spirit with His Spirit. Remain in Him and He will remain in you (John 15:4). Draw near to Him, and He will draw near to you (James 3:8). Let Him love you so you can love Him back and love others. Your identity needs to come from Him so you can allow Him to love you the way He desires. If we don't remain in Him, our love will grow cold (Matthew 24:12).
Don't give up! Let's hold each other accountable. I know I need others. I fail more than I care to admit. But pick yourself back up and keep going. He promises to hold you and pick you up every time, but only if you want Him to. Please feel free to share. God Bless!
Saturday, July 28, 2012
Journaled Thoughts
"Nevertheless, to the degree we have already attained, let us walk by the same rule, let us be of the same mind." Phillipians 3:16
Everyone is on a different place in their walk with God. Instead of focusing on doctrinal issues and trying to conform people to your point of the journey, just be unified in mind on the core of our belief: Jesus. He is the Son of God. He is our salvation. He saved us and forgave us and set us free of bondage. Let us stay focused to these truths and with love, let us encourage one another and help one another and pour out our lives and comforts to ensure our brothers and sisters don't fall off the path.
Tongues and prophecy will disappear. Denominations and division will disappear. But what will last forever? Love. So why don't we throw our differences to the side and focus on love? When we stand before our Maker, is He going to ask us why we didn't make people think like us? No! Every person from all time before, now, and in the future are completely unique. Not including the sin of a person, their individual make-up and personality represents a facet of God's personality, although His is infinitely more than even this. So why do we try to cookie-cut Christianity and attempt to make exact replicas of ourselves? I'm not saying that relating our experiences and teaching from the Word is wrong; when we have an encounter with God it is something amazing and beautiful and with His blessing, it is meant to be shared.
Instead, we should celebrate differences and variety and focus on selflessly loving one another and being glad for the aspect of God portrayed through us and do whatever passion/talents/gifts that He has put within us and do them for love of Him and others. Then and only then will we be satisfied, full of joy and peace. Nothing can take that away from you. Not the President, the economy, natural disasters, or trauma. Nothing.
Thoughts and convictions from the Holy Spirit to me this morning.
Everyone is on a different place in their walk with God. Instead of focusing on doctrinal issues and trying to conform people to your point of the journey, just be unified in mind on the core of our belief: Jesus. He is the Son of God. He is our salvation. He saved us and forgave us and set us free of bondage. Let us stay focused to these truths and with love, let us encourage one another and help one another and pour out our lives and comforts to ensure our brothers and sisters don't fall off the path.
Tongues and prophecy will disappear. Denominations and division will disappear. But what will last forever? Love. So why don't we throw our differences to the side and focus on love? When we stand before our Maker, is He going to ask us why we didn't make people think like us? No! Every person from all time before, now, and in the future are completely unique. Not including the sin of a person, their individual make-up and personality represents a facet of God's personality, although His is infinitely more than even this. So why do we try to cookie-cut Christianity and attempt to make exact replicas of ourselves? I'm not saying that relating our experiences and teaching from the Word is wrong; when we have an encounter with God it is something amazing and beautiful and with His blessing, it is meant to be shared.
Instead, we should celebrate differences and variety and focus on selflessly loving one another and being glad for the aspect of God portrayed through us and do whatever passion/talents/gifts that He has put within us and do them for love of Him and others. Then and only then will we be satisfied, full of joy and peace. Nothing can take that away from you. Not the President, the economy, natural disasters, or trauma. Nothing.
Thoughts and convictions from the Holy Spirit to me this morning.
Thursday, June 14, 2012
Vision during worship
This was a vision God gave me one night during worship at a time when I was struggling to accept His unconditional love. Hope it encourages you and gives you a deeper comprehension of the love that He offers all of us:
I was at the scene of the cross on Golgotha...only it was me going to be crucified. It was overcast and dreary. There was a bloodthirsty crowd gathered around, shamelessly judging while putting a mask over their own sins. I deserved to be there and I knew it. I was heavy laden with guilt and sorrow, drowning with wave after wave of self-loathing while seemingly contradicting these emotions as I felt pity for myself.
I was there by my own undoing; I had broken every moral and written law there was. I was a murderer of my own unborn child. I never cared who I hurt as long as I could keep getting high. I gave my body away time and time again. I murdered, committed adultery, stole, coveted, bore false witness, compulsively lied and manipulated, dishonored my parents, while I hated and blamed God for all of my problems.
As I got ready to be nailed to the rough-hewn tree covered in others' blood, I heard a gut-wrenching, painful scream, "STOP! WAIT!"
Jesus burst through the crowd: dirty, disheveled, eyes red and pouring tears, panic-stricken face. "No! Not her! Take me! It was me that did these things!" His voice faltered toward the end as He considered the possibility of my impending death.
The guards shoved me to the ground and converged on Him, blood-lust in their eyes. As they pulled Him away, beating Him and pulling the hair out of His beard, spitting in His face, I was consumed by guilt. I grabbed onto His already blood soaked garment, to stop this innocent man from taking the punishment that I so richly deserved. But then....then I caught His eyes. He fully beheld me with His pale, blue irises, speaking epic novels of love with one glance. One look and the passion overtook me. My strength faded and I let go. Peace flooded my soul.
Why, though? I deserved it! Part of me even longed for it, to have the pain inflicted on my physical body that matched my wretched soul. Why did He love me that much when I didn't even know how to love myself? My past was marked with abuse and neglect, but I always had free will and a way out, yet I chose "wrong answer" every time.
Jesus paid my price. As I gazed up at Him hanging on that rugged tree, gasping for each breath, His precious royal blood flowed freely down His body and poured onto the top of my head, anointing me with forgiveness and grace, then consumed every inch of my body, instilling Himself into my very DNA.
I became a totally new creature: perfect, holy, beautiful. Forgiven. God's own child. Given the keys to the kingdom and qualified to enter eternal glory.
I was at the scene of the cross on Golgotha...only it was me going to be crucified. It was overcast and dreary. There was a bloodthirsty crowd gathered around, shamelessly judging while putting a mask over their own sins. I deserved to be there and I knew it. I was heavy laden with guilt and sorrow, drowning with wave after wave of self-loathing while seemingly contradicting these emotions as I felt pity for myself.
I was there by my own undoing; I had broken every moral and written law there was. I was a murderer of my own unborn child. I never cared who I hurt as long as I could keep getting high. I gave my body away time and time again. I murdered, committed adultery, stole, coveted, bore false witness, compulsively lied and manipulated, dishonored my parents, while I hated and blamed God for all of my problems.
As I got ready to be nailed to the rough-hewn tree covered in others' blood, I heard a gut-wrenching, painful scream, "STOP! WAIT!"
Jesus burst through the crowd: dirty, disheveled, eyes red and pouring tears, panic-stricken face. "No! Not her! Take me! It was me that did these things!" His voice faltered toward the end as He considered the possibility of my impending death.
The guards shoved me to the ground and converged on Him, blood-lust in their eyes. As they pulled Him away, beating Him and pulling the hair out of His beard, spitting in His face, I was consumed by guilt. I grabbed onto His already blood soaked garment, to stop this innocent man from taking the punishment that I so richly deserved. But then....then I caught His eyes. He fully beheld me with His pale, blue irises, speaking epic novels of love with one glance. One look and the passion overtook me. My strength faded and I let go. Peace flooded my soul.
Why, though? I deserved it! Part of me even longed for it, to have the pain inflicted on my physical body that matched my wretched soul. Why did He love me that much when I didn't even know how to love myself? My past was marked with abuse and neglect, but I always had free will and a way out, yet I chose "wrong answer" every time.
Jesus paid my price. As I gazed up at Him hanging on that rugged tree, gasping for each breath, His precious royal blood flowed freely down His body and poured onto the top of my head, anointing me with forgiveness and grace, then consumed every inch of my body, instilling Himself into my very DNA.
I became a totally new creature: perfect, holy, beautiful. Forgiven. God's own child. Given the keys to the kingdom and qualified to enter eternal glory.
Passionate Hunger
Love, love the verse in Isaiah 42:14. It really paints a picture of how much Jesus loves us! "I have held my peace a long time, I have been still and restrained myself. Now I will cry like a woman in labor, I will pant and gasp at once."
This is talking about when He comes back for us. Now if you've ever been in labor, you know that is serious passion! He is coming back to avenge us and rescue us! And if you know Him already, He has already rescued you from hell and sin and made you perfect in His sight. If you allow Him to, He will give you perfect peace and joy and hope no matter what might be going on in your life. It comes at a cost: to lose everything in this life you think might be important, although the more you give Him, the more He fills you with Himself and you wonder why you ever held onto your meager attempts to control your life.
The more I get to know Him, the more I realize I don't know, and He is infinitely more amazing that my mind can grasp.
I hate religion. But His presence?...His presence I love. Just one taste of the manifest presence of God will forever change your life. Knowing Him shows me who I am...who I was created to be...how to love. Those who have been forgiven much love much. By 22, I was dead inside. Hopeless. Lost. At Death's door. But when I was still a sinner, he freely reached out to me and wrapped me in His arms, took off my rags, and gave me His robes. He called me His child and told me I was perfect. And all I had to do was say yes. I have never regretted that decision. Through many, many mistakes and doubts, fears, triumphs....I have never been able to deny Him. And the more I know, the more hooked and consumed I become to be closer. It's a hard life, but somebody has to live it! Good thing about Jesus...it's for everybody who says yes.
Truly blessed!
This is talking about when He comes back for us. Now if you've ever been in labor, you know that is serious passion! He is coming back to avenge us and rescue us! And if you know Him already, He has already rescued you from hell and sin and made you perfect in His sight. If you allow Him to, He will give you perfect peace and joy and hope no matter what might be going on in your life. It comes at a cost: to lose everything in this life you think might be important, although the more you give Him, the more He fills you with Himself and you wonder why you ever held onto your meager attempts to control your life.
The more I get to know Him, the more I realize I don't know, and He is infinitely more amazing that my mind can grasp.
I hate religion. But His presence?...His presence I love. Just one taste of the manifest presence of God will forever change your life. Knowing Him shows me who I am...who I was created to be...how to love. Those who have been forgiven much love much. By 22, I was dead inside. Hopeless. Lost. At Death's door. But when I was still a sinner, he freely reached out to me and wrapped me in His arms, took off my rags, and gave me His robes. He called me His child and told me I was perfect. And all I had to do was say yes. I have never regretted that decision. Through many, many mistakes and doubts, fears, triumphs....I have never been able to deny Him. And the more I know, the more hooked and consumed I become to be closer. It's a hard life, but somebody has to live it! Good thing about Jesus...it's for everybody who says yes.
Truly blessed!
Saturday, May 19, 2012
Faith in the Unseen
"You, the [Lord] God, keep my lamp burning and turn darkness to light."
It causes such a shift in the atmosphere when you believe what the Word says and act on it. Heaven responds to faith over need 99.9% of the time. I mean, most of us say we believe in God, Jesus, and the Bible, but do we really? Then why aren't we living like Jesus did and healing the sick and raising the dead? It's unbelief. Doubt. This opens the door for fear and rejection to walk in.
Since faith is what pleases God (Hebrews 11:6), if we are a Christian, we should quit acting so religious and start taking some risks.
Trust me, it's scary. When you ask Holy Spirit to use you and you hear Him tell you to pray for healing for a complete stranger, it's terrifying if you're anything like me. What if he doesn't get healed? Like Pastor Rusty says at The Rock, "But what if he does?"
In my case, there have only been two instances where the people weren't deeply touched that I prayed for them. Most of them were greatly moved and filled with peace and joy to know that God singled them out like that. Has everyone I prayed for been healed? Nope. Did I get discouraged? For a while. But then Jesus reminded me that I am being transformed into His likeness and to keep praying to Him in the secret place for breakthrough. I am not even close to being anointed like I desire, but I can't base life on my experiences, but only on the Word of God. And Jesus healed them all. I can't make a theology that's not in the Bible and say that maybe it's God's will someone is sick. God is completely good, 100% of the time. He said to pray for His will to be done on earth as it is in heaven and there is NO sickness in heaven, only joy, peace, and justice.
I get completely encouraged by fellowshipping with other believers who are experiencing breakthrough and listening to sermons and testimonies from other churches. Bethel Church in Redding, California experiences astounding breakthrough in miracles and healings. You can even download their podcasts for free on ITunes. It's under Bethel Church, Bill Johnson, and Kris Vallotton.
I encourage you all to immerse yourself in worship with the One who created all things and to walk in great faith and great grace. As John Wimber states, "Faith is spelled R-I-S-K."
God Bless!
Kelly
It causes such a shift in the atmosphere when you believe what the Word says and act on it. Heaven responds to faith over need 99.9% of the time. I mean, most of us say we believe in God, Jesus, and the Bible, but do we really? Then why aren't we living like Jesus did and healing the sick and raising the dead? It's unbelief. Doubt. This opens the door for fear and rejection to walk in.
Since faith is what pleases God (Hebrews 11:6), if we are a Christian, we should quit acting so religious and start taking some risks.
Trust me, it's scary. When you ask Holy Spirit to use you and you hear Him tell you to pray for healing for a complete stranger, it's terrifying if you're anything like me. What if he doesn't get healed? Like Pastor Rusty says at The Rock, "But what if he does?"
In my case, there have only been two instances where the people weren't deeply touched that I prayed for them. Most of them were greatly moved and filled with peace and joy to know that God singled them out like that. Has everyone I prayed for been healed? Nope. Did I get discouraged? For a while. But then Jesus reminded me that I am being transformed into His likeness and to keep praying to Him in the secret place for breakthrough. I am not even close to being anointed like I desire, but I can't base life on my experiences, but only on the Word of God. And Jesus healed them all. I can't make a theology that's not in the Bible and say that maybe it's God's will someone is sick. God is completely good, 100% of the time. He said to pray for His will to be done on earth as it is in heaven and there is NO sickness in heaven, only joy, peace, and justice.
I get completely encouraged by fellowshipping with other believers who are experiencing breakthrough and listening to sermons and testimonies from other churches. Bethel Church in Redding, California experiences astounding breakthrough in miracles and healings. You can even download their podcasts for free on ITunes. It's under Bethel Church, Bill Johnson, and Kris Vallotton.
I encourage you all to immerse yourself in worship with the One who created all things and to walk in great faith and great grace. As John Wimber states, "Faith is spelled R-I-S-K."
God Bless!
Kelly
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